Tuesday, August 30, 2005
teacher's day celebration... be-urself day...
i do realise i was being melodramatic in my last entry... but if u guys out there do noe e true story behind tt "story", pls, juz keep it 2 urself n dun ask me anything... Ask me no qns, n i'll tell u no untruths... anyways...2day was a great day, albeit a boring one... but it was great all e same... i wore e outfit i described 2 entries ago with e silver sandals i borrowed frm mei ying... went over 2 her hse last nite ard 8.30 after studying in sch till 8pm... gosh, i'm turning in2 such a mugger... haha... yup... so 2day was Be-Yourself Day, so e whole sch was decked out in their own clothes... quite a sight... a gd one, tt is... i love describing wat ppl wear, so i shall do so now... (sry, i noe u guys think i'm totally bonkers...)yilin was wearing this short white flared skirt, a black baby tee, with a beaded belt n strappy sandals... she had these white hoop earrings on too... altogether really cute...cherri wore this black skirt, abt calf-length, with silver embroidery at e waist... it's of uneven cutting... very bohemian... nice... she wore this pair of white ballet pumps... n she had e same Giordano V-necked baby tee as me! haha... she looked really nice...freesia was more punk rock... black jeans, white baby tee n Converse shoes... she looked like a rocker... like a Green Day member... only Green Day usually wears totally black... but she looked nice too...zhiyi wore a white T-shirt with a black flared skirt which looked kinda like mine, only shorter... very nice too...wat was surprising were e 3 malay guys... nvr thought they cld look so gd dressed up... faiz, haiqal n firdaus all wore such formal clothing... Nice! especially haiqal! he even wore a jacket n a fedora... so cool! he looked like taufik at some angles... haha...let's see... who else... tt's abt it i guess... oh yes... i saw somebody 2day... up close man... abt 1metre away... Damn! haha... gosh he looked damn bloody freakin' gd! swoon... lol... blue striped shirt, blue jeans n white adidas shoes... man, was he handsome or what... sigh... he still is utterly clueless as to who e heck i am... ah, who e heck do i think i am? so many girls r throwing themselves at his feet... even certain bimbos whose names i shall not mention... can't believe it... well, i guess e only consolation is tt he always hangs out with e guys in his class, not e girls... wow... n tt makes me feel so happy... wth...well, i guess tt's it... nthing else much 2 say... so ciao!
cheryl [I`m in love.] 8:49 PM
Sunday, August 28, 2005
confusion sets in...why do i feel the way i do?
let me tell u a story... this story basically revolves around 3 characters... a girl, let's call her L, a guy,N and another guy, H...************************************************************************************************L likes N alot... she's liked him, not frm day 1, but after being frens 4 awhile... L confessed her feelings 2 N... N didn't say no... neither did he say yes... L was left dangling in e air, like a puppet... but L didn't exactly mind... after all, who knew wat wld happen rite? ok. so e whole thing went on... L wasn't sure if N was leading her on or not... but she felt pretty sure tt N wasn't... cos L didn't think N was a lousy jerk... n she thought he was sending some pretty gd signals... L was overjoyed, cos wat she was waiting 4 so long seemed 2 be happening...
but one day... e msgs, e conversations all suddenly fizzled out... L was devastated... wat was goin on? this went on 4 quite awhile... L was desperate 2 noe wat happened... she cldn't concentrate on her work... she became dejected n introverted... so L decided 2 ask N one fine day whether he had any feelings 4 her or not... turns out N only treated L as a gd fren... L broke down... here was e guy she had put so much time n effort in2, n he juz carelessly n mindlessly tore her heart in two... but wat choice did she hv? one cldn't force love... worse of all, ppl ard knew abt L's feelings 4 N... so all L cld do was swallow her pride n tears, stick her chin up n face e real world bravely... life wasn't a bed of roses... even if it was, there were those painful thorns... so L's heart bled silently... luckily, N wasn't tt heartless after all... they became frens again... but L's feelings 4 N nvr died...then H materialized... he had been there all along, juz tt L hadn't exactly noticed, wat with being so wrapped up with e whole N business... H didn't noe L at all... neither did L... but L forced herself 2 think tt she liked H, so tt her heart cld heal, so tt she cld 4get abt N...************************************************************************************************e story isn't complete... i'll write e ending soon enough...
cheryl [I`m in love.] 1:53 AM
shopping success
went shopping at orchard rd 2 day with cherri, yilin, freesia, wenze n zhiyi... love shopping... if i had e moolah, i'd juz go crazy buying stuff... altogether, it was a pretty successful shopping trip... bought a black skirt... it's made of this ruffled kind of material... sorta like crumpled chiffon... it comes with this bronze-coloured flower brooch... dun really like it... but love e whole package all e same... abit costly though... $39... but i loved it so much i juz had 2 get it... lol... it was juz calling out 2 me, as wenze said... haha... also bought a white V-neck shirt frm Giordano 2 go with e skirt... it's 4 Be-Yourself Day nxt tues... how dumb rite? it's called Be-Yourself Day, n e sch restricts us like hell... crazy... cannot wear sleeveless, cannot wear open-toed shoes, cannot wear skirts tt r too short... cannot this, cannot tt... wth? how can it even be called Be-Yourself Day? more like Be-Yourself-But-The-School-Tells-You-What-2-Wear Day...it's been a pretty slack day 4 me... i better go get some work done... got a bloody stupid bio test on mon... yuck.
cheryl [I`m in love.] 1:47 AM
Saturday, August 20, 2005
an eulogy 4 a loved one...
juz finished having a counselling session with mom... she's really sad now... one of her best frens, Sey Moi, passed away ytd... she finally succumbed to stomach cancer, e disease she's been trying 2 fight 4 e past yr or so... it's so sad... i've nvr really met her... maybe i hv, a long time ago... but there's only a vague memory of her... well, this is for her...aunty sey moi, i noe we've nvr really gotten 2 noe each other very well...
but i juz want u 2 noe...
every1 here misses u...
we'll miss ur smile, ur laughter...
we'll miss e times we shared... whether gd or bad...
u've touched our lives, one way or another
u'll always remain in our hearts...
n we love u always...
go in peace... and find happiness n joy in God's kingdom...
mom attended her funeral with dad juz now... when she came back, she came in2 my room with a look i've nvr seen on her face b4... a look of utter loss n pain... she looked so helpless... i felt really sad... aunty sey moi was considered 1 her closest frens... mom came in n said "maybe i've been visited aunty sey moi at e hospital so many times. i dunno, when i entered my room, i smelt tt familiar hospital smell. u noe, like e kind of odour in hospital wards." then she took a deep breath n i knew she was gonna cry any time... so i got up n gave her a big hug... i told her "u noe, maybe aunty sey moi noes u really miss u so she was around. maybe her spirit was around, tt's y u smelt e hospital smell." then mom began 2 cry... at tt point i really cldn't help it too... so i cried with her... mom said " u noe, i told myself i wldn't cry at e funeral. but now..." n then she juz cldn't continue anymore... i dun blame her... if my close fren were to suddenly leave this world, i dunno wat i wld do... so i told mom "don't cry, at least now aunty sey moi isn't suffering anymore. now she's resting in peace. i noe u really miss her, but u gotta let her go. if not she won't be able to rest in peace. u must let her go. God will take care of her, He won't forsake her. she's probably in heaven now, well n happy. don't worry. she's always there, watching over all of us." sigh... i really hate it when a loved one is taken... but wat can we do? when our time comes, we hv 2 go, even if we want 2 or not... sigh... tt's e cruelty of life... life is so beautiful... we must truly cherish it when we hv it, n make full use of it... otherwise when we're gone frm this world, we will go with regrets... live strong, ppl...
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
I didn't get around to kiss you goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
I hope you can hear me cos I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by
Now you're gone, now you're gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone, now you're gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere your not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same
I miss you
-Avril Lavigne-
cheryl [I`m in love.] 11:54 PM
Thursday, August 18, 2005
never had a dream come true
Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use lookin' back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this i know, but still I can't find ways to let you go
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you
Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use lookin' back or wonderin'
How it should be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will
Say you will
You know you will oh baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use lookin' back or wonderin'
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No No No No
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you
-S Club 7-
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this song has been stuck in my head 4 e whole of 2day... it's such a lovely song...
my day has turned out freakin' great... except for 1 little thing which i shall not even bother 2 write abt...
i got my wish
i took e 1st step
n now it's little steps 2gether...
yay!
cheryl [I`m in love.] 10:55 PM
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
boring day...again....
juz got home frm this brazilian bbq restaurant at east coast park big splash... absolutely stuffed... food was gd though... view was nice too... lots of caucasians... haha... *hint hint* lots of cute guys 2 look at... too bad there r tons of hot sexy caucasian chicks around too... haha... ok... wat 2 write... 2day was ultra boring... let's see... woke upat 10am, tinkered around doing nthing... wandered downstairs at abt 11am 2 find sumthing 2 munch on... mom decided 2 cook an early lunch... basically juz maggi mee n grilled fish... ah... u noe wat... this is putting me 2 slp... alright i'm gonna go rot in my room now...
cheryl [I`m in love.] 9:52 PM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
remember...
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me
I am the one star that keeps burning, so brightly,
It is the last light, to fade into the rising sun
I'm with you
Whenever you tell, my story
For I am all I've done
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember me
I am the one voice in the cold wind, that whispers
And if you listen, you'll hear me call across the sky
As long as I still can reach out, and touch you
Then I will never die
Remember, I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me
Remember me...
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me
Remember me
Remember... me...
-josh groban (with tanja tzarovska)-
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thought u guys might like these lyrics... it's e soundtrack of Troy, one of my fave movies... this song is juz beautiful... anyway... 2day's national day... everywhere i go, i see red & white, white & red... getting quite annoying... haha... now ppl r gonna think i'm this idiot who doesn't appreciate our nation's birthday... not true... but seriously, some ppl shld think b4 they wear red n white... e colors dun suit them sumtimes... so all it creates is an eyesore 4 other ppl... feelin kinda down... dunno y... can't place my finger on it... maybe it has 2 do with a certain sum1 whose bday happens 2 fall on National Day..? haha...
cheryl [I`m in love.] 2:14 PM
Sunday, August 07, 2005
back at last...
hvn't been blogging 4 such a long long time... blogging has kinda lost its element of fun... haha... lots of stuff has happened during this period of time... both good n bad... firstly, some1 confessed their feelings 4 me... some1 i kinda expected... but some1 i thought wld hv juz given up... not 2 say tt i'm wonderful or anything (i noe i'm not...), but this guy really is reaching way outta his league... i'm sorry... but seriously, i really dun think i can even continue being frens with this guy... he is juz way way scary... he even wanted an answer frm me... i dunno, but my reaction was like "wtf? u even want an answer? isn't obvious already? i mean, look at u n me, do we even look compatible 2gether?" not 2 be mean or anything, but i wldn't even be frens with this guy if i hadn't pitied him cos he said he had no frens... i noe it sounds pretty mean, but dun get me wrong... i really dun mean anything by tt... seriously, my standards r quite (meaning very) high... i noe, i look like shit la... but still... a girl can dream... sigh... on a happier note, there's some1 absolutely gorgeous now... my bae yong jun... omg... tt guy is juz 2 die 4... he is so handsome... i must must MUST get 2 noe him... haha... easier said than done la...
cheryl [I`m in love.] 4:03 PM
