Sunday, January 29, 2006
happy chinese new year! yeah right...
well, chinese new year again.
how time flies.
but this year, here i am in london.
no ang pows.
sob.
cny in london is pathetic.
even in chinatown.
they put up these sad little red lanterns.
i mean, put up something more pathetic, why don't u?
just got back from shopping.
man, i didn't buy anything at all!
wow, self-control to the max man.
it hards to type, now that my fingers are frozen hard.
it is effing cold today.
wanted to buy more warm clothes but they're all so darn expensive.
and those beautiful sparkling red shoes i so wanted to get were way beyond my budget.
25 big, gigantic pounds.
dang.
we (sophy, shu rong, lavinia, katie and i went to covent garden, chinatown and oxford street today.
lots to look, but nothing much to buy.
had pizza at a classic pizza parlour down oxford street.
man, lavinia is such a big eater.
9 slices of pizza.
plus lots of other stuff too.
and not an inch of fat on her.
bloody unfair man.
well, i know his name now.
i know his nationality.
i know his course.
i know he's cute.
i know he's got brains too.
but what good does that do me?
sigh.
he's too perfect.
a gorgeous Adonis with brains.
can u imagine?
a place waiting for him in london school of economics already.
god.
whoever he chooses as his girlfriend will be the luckiest girl on earth.
sigh.
well saturday night and here i am stuck in my room again.
listening to sad love songs.
doing effing homework that my bloody ass of a teacher gave us.
lookin forward to tmr.
gonna have a class steamboat party.
i have a sudden longing for home.
i miss everyone at home so much.
all my frens too.
man i can't even have my usual cny celebrations with my frens over at my house.
urgh.
cheryl [I`m in love.] 5:30 AM Friday, January 27, 2006
heartbreak lullaby
In the still of the night
I can almost feel you lying next to me
Like it used to be
And it's hard to let go
When there's always something there reminding me
How things could be
I've tried to get you off my mind
I've tried to play my part
But every time I close to my eyes
You're still inside my heart
Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry?
Everytime we say goodbye
Why does it rain
Here in my heart
Everyday that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What will it take to make you see?
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby
Like the stars in the sky
You still keep on shining down your light on me
but out of reach
And I know that in time
You will come back to your senses, see the signs
And change your mind
I try to look the other way
And keep my heart on hold
But every time I'm close to you
I lose my self control
Why can't I laugh?
Why must I cry?
Everytime we say goodbye
Why does it rain
Here in my heart
Everyday that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What will it take to make you see?
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby
Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Give me just one good reason why
Why does it rain?
Here in my heart
Everyday that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What will it take to make you see?
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby
Why can't I laugh?
Why must I cry?
Everytime we say goodbye
Why does it rain
Here in my heart
Everyday that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What will it take to make you see?
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby
- a*teens -
cheryl [I`m in love.] 1:46 AM Wednesday, January 25, 2006
this one got me cryin for days on end...
cheryl [I`m in love.] 4:05 PM
watch this... funny shit...
cheryl [I`m in love.] 3:52 PM
S.H.O.W. me!
i'm giving up, moving on.
too slow for me, man.
like what eliza doolittle, played by the legendary audrey hepburn, said in the all-time classic my fair lady.
"Anyone who's ever been in love'll tell you that
This is no time for a chat!"
if u're in love, show me!
Don't waste my time, show me!
show me!
sigh.
i give up.
at this rate, i'll be a singleton all my damn bloody life.
yup.
just a pathetic loser.
just when it was so close.
guess it just wasn't meant to be.
sigh.
oh wells.
hopefully someone else just as good or better will come along.
sooner rather than later.
cheryl [I`m in love.] 7:15 AM Tuesday, January 24, 2006
questions that got me thinking...
fuck it.
why do the bloody caucasian guys have to look so goddamn handsome/cute/gorgeous?
and why do the stupid ass caucasian girls (a.k.a. bitches) have to looks so perfect/model-like/beautiful?
these are some of life's unanswerable questions.
i've got a couple more.
1. why do u always have to fall for the most gorgeous guys?
2. why do guys always make u think that they like u, and then they don't do a damn thing to show their interest?
3. why do guys always fool with girls' hearts?
4. do guys enjoy doing that? (see 3.)
5. why do the ugliest girls get the best looking guys around?
6. are those guys blind? (see 4.)
7. do girls like me remain single all their life?
8. why do girls like me attract ugly, disgusting, pathetic guys?
9. is it because we are ugly, disgusting and pathetic too?
10. why do guys have to look so good and break the hearts of the girls around them?
11. why are guys so immune to a girl's feeling for them?
12. are guys brainless, or just totally clueless?
13. why are all the hottest guys already taken?
14. what did those guys' girlfriends do to get them?
15.what must one do to hook the cutest, nicest, sweetest, most popular guy in the school?
anyone who can answer all my above questions will be a total genius.
anyone who gives me advice for question15, and i actually do manage to even get close to the cutest, nicest, sweetest, most popular guy in school, without embarrassing myself, u will be my new best friend.
cheryl [I`m in love.] 3:43 AM Sunday, January 22, 2006
true story
never have lyrics been more apt for me.
Dear diary
Today I saw a boy
And I wondered if he noticed me
He took my breath away
Dear diary
I can't get him off my mind
And it scares me
'Cause I've never felt this way
No one in this world
Knows me better than you do
So diary I'll confide in you
Dear diary
Today I saw a boy
As he walked by
I thought he smiled at me
And I wonder
Does he know what's in my heart
I tried to smile,
but I could hardly breathe
Should I tell him how I feel
Or would that scare him away
Diary, tell me what to do
Please tell me what to say
Dear diary
One touch of his hand
Now I can't wait to see that boy again
He smiled
And I thought my heart could fly
Diary, do you think that we'll be more than friends?
I've got a feeling we'll be so much more than friends
- britney spears-
cheryl [I`m in love.] 4:59 AM
dreams...
i should stop dreaming.
u're too beautiful for me.
you're almost perfect.
i feel lucky enough just to see u.
my day can be lousy like shit but when u appear my mood lifts again.
just that one minute is great.
i can't get enough of u.
who are u?
where do u come from?
what are ur dreams?
i wanna know all about u.
i see ur face everywhere i go.
i feel like i'm walking on air.
i don't care what people say.
u're perfect.
like a michelangelo.
i'm still asleep aren't i?
this feels like a dream.
god, u have such a cute ass.
but u're never gonna know that.
at least not from me.
i love ur hair.
trust me, u don't look stupid.
don't hide it with ur cap.
it looks perfect as it is.
u're the epitome of a perfect gentleman.
i thought chivalry had been all but dead.
now i know that's not true.
u're sweet as sugar.
so kind and caring.
everyone can't help but like u.
u're just so endearing.
i think i'm in love.
cheryl [I`m in love.] 4:05 AM Wednesday, January 18, 2006
cheryl [I`m in love.] 6:34 AM
fairytales
ooh storytime!
picture this scenario in ur head.
the setting sun, an orangey-pinkish glow in the sky.
it's chilly, the soft breeze is blowing.
a girl emerges from within the warm depths of a building, weary from a really boring class.
she waves goodbye to her frens who are gathered in reception area.
she hugs her books and papers to her chest, pulling her jacket closer to her, head bent low.
up ahead, she spots two figures walking together, two guys.
one has bleached hair, the other is asian.
"do you have alot of homework today?"
she can't help overhearing the hong kong guy.
she's a couple steps behind them only now.
"they're walking too slow!"
she thinks, irritated, already late for an appointment with her fren to go shopping.
she walks slightly faster, overtaking the two guys, a little hindered because she is wearing heels and it's hard to walk quickly without risking embarassing herself by tripping over.
the asian guy glances at her.
"haha! i know what u're thinking man!"
he says to the blond russian guy, laughing.
she looks back.
the russian guy looks directly at her.
overwhelmed, she quickly looks away, cursing herself for doing so immediately.
she hurries to her block.
before entering she glances up casually.
the russian guy strides towards his block purposefully.
before he enters, he looked over his shoulder at her again.
she rushes in, partly cos it's cold, partly cos... well, u know.
hmm.
i wonder what that was all about.
dreams, i suppose.
cheryl [I`m in love.] 6:22 AM Monday, January 16, 2006
sales make me happy
just got back from oxford street in central london.
the underground is actually pretty easy to use, once u get the hang of it.
man, oxford street is so happening!
lots of my favourite shops there.
fcuk?
two floors.
Dorothy Perkins?
three floors.
Topshop?
it was shopping heaven.
bought two bags from Dorothy Perkins.
on sale. (duh.)
buy one get one free.
two for 5pounds.
how could i resist?
bought a sheer pink nail polish from some cosmetics store.
and a pen from a stationary shop.
stuff is quite reasonable.
practically all the shops were having sales.
i almost bought a cream coloured sweater from Mango.
it was so cheap!
only 5pounds!
but i had to control my spending.
sob.
cheryl [I`m in love.] 1:11 AM Sunday, January 15, 2006
shopping trip...
hi all, just got back from a shopping trip.
went to asda, which is almost the equivalent to carrefour or giant back home.
bought my groceries and a new shirt and purse.
i love the shirt!
it's grey with sequins on the front.
the best thing?
it only cost me 3pounds.
less than S$10!
great bargain.
we had to take 2 buses there.
and i didn't know the way.
but one of the girls we went with asked the school for directions.
we got on the bus (which cost a freakin' $1.50)
that girl is such a whiner!
oh my god.
let me tell u about this girl first.
she's in my class (of all bad luck)
but who asked me to have a soft heart and pity her when everyone like avoided her.
cos she's so bloody talkative.
she doesn't care if people are listening at all.
she just pushes ahead like a bulldozer.
so anyway, she goes on whining on the bus that, oh my god, i'm getting really worried now, i think we should get off now, oh my god, i'm really panicking now.
i was like relax man.
to her, it's being precautious.
to me, it's being anal.
u're a fucking pain in the ass.
stay the fuck away from me.
cheryl [I`m in love.] 12:05 AM Thursday, January 12, 2006
update for everyone back home...
been busy the past few days.
well, i'm pretty settled here already.
quite happy with my room, except from the fact that it is mousehole tiny.
and that the bloody smoke detector goes off each time i finish taking a shower cos they installed it so freakin' near the bathroom.
tell me, does that make sense?
i mean, use ur brain.
which idiot installs a smoke detector so near the bathroom?
do they expect me to shower with cold water?
i'll pour cold water on them.
see how they like it.
it is bloody cold here.
well, let's see.
what news do i have?
hmm.
one of the teachers here is cute.
understandably, he's the social activities teacher.
haha.
ok, cheryl, don't get any ideas.
i got my timetable today.
quite slack, actually.
like, for example, tomorrow, i don't have morning classes at all.
i only have one class, british culture, which starts at like 2.45pm uk time.
and i end at 4.45pm.
so that's a total of 2 hours of class tomorrow.
but of course there are days which are packed.
like monday and friday(bloody hell!), i have classes starting at 9.15am and ending at 4.45pm, with only 1 hour lunch break in between.
but the teacher usually gives breaks too.
and their breaks aren't like the ones singapore teachers give.
nope, not just 5min or 10min, but 20min!
and the teacher even comes back late.
marvellous.
well, the friends part is coming along fine.
i now have an international phone book.
hong kong, china, malaysia, japan, korea, vietnam, kazakhstan(i think that's how it's spelt).
everyone's pretty nice.
some are not very friendly though.
but i guess everyone's feeling a little weird, so that's ok.
well gtg pretend to sleep now.
can u believe it?
the residence supervisor comes round at 11pm to check on u.
tell me about it man.
absolutely no privacy.
cheryl [I`m in love.] 6:37 AM Tuesday, January 10, 2006
hello from london to all
it's cold like shit here.
i hate the weather in london.
it is rainy, cold and just gloomy.
dismal weather.
well, i don't have much to write.
just wanna say hi to everyone back in sunny, hot, tropical weather singapore.
god i miss the heatstroke-causing temperature in good ol' singapore.
oh wells.
made a friend at school.
notice it's "a friend" not "friends".
ppl here are cold, like the weather.
well, i gotta go now.
oh n one more thing.
the time i put here will be s'pore time too.
i'm too lazy to deal with the time difference crap.
cheryl [I`m in love.] 4:02 AM Wednesday, January 04, 2006
so long, farewell...
good things happen slowly.
thanks for the sms.
now i know u were thinking of me.
sigh.
hope u know too that u're always on my mind.
oh wells.
today's the day.
this'll be my last post until i get to london.
just wanna say goodbye to everyone i didn't already say goodbye to.
take care guys.
i'm gonna miss all of u.
damn i hate this feeling.
i think i'm gonna cry all the way on the plane.
and to think i'm flying alone.
and i'm scared of flying too.
great.
well gtg now.
so long, all.
keep in touch.
cheryl [I`m in love.] 1:18 PM Sunday, January 01, 2006
in love with love...
i'm back from egypt.
man, i really didn't wanna leave at all.
egypt is a great place.
i love it.
i'm definitely going back there again someday.
this has been the best vacation ever.
i swear to god, i never wanna forget this vacation.
i had the greatest time.
thanks to u.
i hope it wasn't just an illusion.
well actually i think we both know that there was something.
something truly special.
something deep.
and the best thing of all?
i think it was mutual.
the stars in luxor were beautiful.
even though it was freezing up on deck.
but it was worth it.
i enjoyed every single moment with u.
u made everything even more wonderful with your presence.
never mind that ur brother caught u whilst u were sneaking out to meet me at midnight.
knowing that u were willing to risk ur ass just to meet me is good too.
although it would've been terrific if we could have spent all night up on deck together.
but u made up for it by sitting with me in the bus the next morning.
oh man.
i miss u so bad.
it's illogical and irrational.
but it's true.
u are one lucky idiot.
morocco's nice.
too bad i can't be there.
with u.
cheryl [I`m in love.] 10:58 PM
